Last Day

So today is the day. It is my last day as a stay at home mom. Ugh how I'm going to miss it. I have absolutley LOVED every single second of it!

Yesterday was very emotional for me. I spent the entire day snuggling and sniffling with my boys. Any of you with babes know that when Mommy is upset, baby is upset. I made the day impossible for them. They didn't sleep during any of their naps. I felt so bad for them, but at the same time I loved (almost) every second of it. I would have much prefered happy snuggly babes instead of squirmy crying babes...BUT I still got to hold them almost all day.

Today is going to be a different story. We got to mope together yesterday, now we are going to have fun together. We had a wonderful moring of eating cereal and nursing. Then we got out of our pee stink diapers and into clean ones. We even got dressed for the day right away (normally I wait until after their first nap). We have been smiling and giggling together. We have a lot to do today. Mommy is going to put on a brave face for her babes. I want a happy day!!

I am begining to pack their tote for daycare. They need so much stuff. Well not really, but more than I've ever had to pack before. I mean bottles, I have to pack bottles. I've never done that. Ok that's a lie, I've packed one or two in the beginning, when I was too afraid to nurse in public. Haha, that seems soo long ago. Eeek, speaking of bottles, it's been MONTHS since they have been on a bottle. I hope they do okay on the bottle tomorrow. I know I should probably try to use the bottle today....but give up some of my last nursing moments....I DON'T THINK SO! I do plan on continuing to nurse during the school year. I will nurse in the morning and at night. I am hoping that I will even get in their 4:00 feeding most days. Their 2-3 feedings while at daycare will be breatmilk from the bottle. I am going to pump during the school day. That's the plan as of now. I have never had a problem pumping before, but I know that while pumping at work I'm probably going to be nervous someone will walk in, worried that I am 'wasting' my time pumping when I could be doing something else that will help me get out of the building earlier, etc. I'm sure that all of those things could affect my milk. I am going to try my hardest to stay relaxed during the school day while pumping. I just have to remember that I want them on breastmilk.

This afternoon we are going to go to Babies R Us. We need to buy some crib sheets. They are suppose to have 6 each at the center....6, come on. The director said they don't actually need that many. She thought the number they have on the parent handbook was insane. So she said 4-6 for both of them. Well I don't have 4-6 even at my house. Ok that's a lie too. I have 8. They come in packs of 2 and we have the ones that came with their bedding (which don't fit their cribs because we have mini cribs) and then we have blue, green, and white. I figure I should go buy at least 1 more package. This way I can have 4-6 at the center and 2-4 at home. I really need to have at least 4 at home. That way 2 can be in the wash and 2 on the cribs. So maybe I will buy 2 packages. This is probably a bit overboard, but I just want to be a good Mama :) Oh and we are going to buy another Nuby teething ring. We have one and the boys actually fight over it. It's too cute. They will be laying on the ground, one will have it in his hands/mouth and the other will reach over and grab it. They actually have both had it in their mouths at the same time. I figure I could buy them a present before they start daycare.

Then we are actually going to go to the daycare today. I am allowed to go before they start. This way I can drop of all of their stuff that is going to be staying there (it will be sent home to be laundered weekly or when needed). I will get to learn how to sign them in, get my key fob, etc. The boys will get to meet their 'teacher' and 'play' in their room with me. Hopefully this will make it less crazy tomorrow when they start for real. I just hope I don't break down and cry while we are there today. As long as the tears hold out until we get back in the car. OH MOTHERHOOD what have you done to my emotions. Any of you that know me, know that I'm not a cryer....I should say WASN'T a cryer, now that's all I do.

Well I will let you know how it goes. I know the boys will be fine...Mommy on the other hand. Probably not! (and I don't want to be!!!)

Mic on left, Gunnar on right. Oh so cute!